blue shirt a size too small

I know my goals.
Until this weekend that was...

have you ever been blindsided? i'm not ready even if i could have been.
letting this sink in is more of an effort than the shock itself. i don't have a clue what to do or how to react.
i can't let myself go back to how i was, i must persevere towards my greatest goals of self-fulfillment, and that means i can't pass this by. i mustn't hault myself either, because then i shall lose the momentum that i've gained. i must for once in my life learn the final dimension and not forget who i am and what i am here for in the process.

a real test of what i am capable of and my comittment to that which i dream of.

but what of the consequences?